Even though I had a great experience in Florida with my family my thoughts and mind often drifted back north. I called Dante whenever I could (which was not often enough for me with everyone else around). Christmas came and went uneventful. New Year's eve and day came and went uneventful. Some may like this. Others like me get depressed. Not that I want drama but something would be nice. Dante - he called... made me smile and wish I was with him instead of where I was at.
Dante and I went out last night. He picked me up after the kids were in bed and after I had spoken with Brian. We went through the drive in at McDonald's and just drove around and talked. We talked about us. We talked about Brian and Rebecca. We talked about the kids. And it is hard for me to sit here and not know what is going to happen. I mean I am happy with Brian but I am not as happy as I could be. I also don't think Dante would be able to make me as happy as I want to be. He calls me at all time crazy times just to put a smile on my face and then just say he's got to go. He makes me wonder what is on his mind. Is this a good thing? I don't know. I think I am playing with fire...
That's my thoughts for right now anyway...
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